Latest conflict

Hm. Conflict is a huge thing and it's all caused by ones self usually. So basically my latest relationship is unlike any other... I've been seeing this guy for a little over a month now and we have gone to many of my family functions, stayed the night together, he has taken work off to take care of sick me, ect.

So I had a pretty painful surgery yesterday and it is kicking my butt today with pain and not being able to move, can't even lift 10 pounds and I'm tired as all heck.  My man spent all day with me and took me to my dentist appointment. My dentist asked me today so the gentleman with you, is he your boyfriend, fiance... I replied we are dating without a title then told my man about that conversation.  When I stated what the dentist asked, Pat, my man, said "yes"; no classification of what we are or if we are married or anything but just said yes in general. That threw me off after we had a conversation earlier about how he is bring selfish and not married yet.

My mom later in the evening then asked me  if I want to be with Pat because I am ready to be married and want to be or because it feels right. I told her we haven't seen each other long enough to know all I know is that everything feels normal with him but not necessarily right like a fairytale. Everything with him feels so natural, as if this is how it should be.

So I don't know what to do because I love how we are but I want more..

People

When you look out at the vast sky and see the clouds some days there aren't as many and some days there are so many you can't see the blue. It's like people, some days there are so many around you can't see clearly and other days there are none at all making life seem like a void of stability. Those days you must push forward for the idea that you will have tomorrow to see more clouds,  see more that are reliable. You must remember although that clouds come and go and are never the same ones, you must be your own sunshine that keeps your darkest days lit.

Updates((LIFE))

So I am joyed to say how I left Mr perfect who ended up being aweful and abusive. Now am dating a coworker, a supervisor, non direct, and he is pretty good to me so far. He takes care of me and is really good about just accepting me for everything I am. He has his flaws but they aren't a bother to me, he is so accepting me along with caring. Continual caring and taking care of me in all ways. He is very respectful to my family and friends. This guy is great so far, still in our honeymoon stage I'm sure but man does he rock.